30 April 2012

Post Event Blues

Sometimes it's rather aggravating how much work goes into such a short amount of times. Six hours of meetings, countless  hours of planning, four hours of shopping, nine hours of cooking, eight hours of decorating and hundreds of dollars later, the annual historical ball is over, just like that. Just now it is really starting to sink in, though the full post-event blues will really set in after the thank notes are written, the final checks cashed, and the decorations packed tidily away. It's a bittersweet feeling. I'm looking forward to getting a decent amount of sleep (the five hours every night this week just didn't cut it) and having some other things to think about and focus on. I won't have to worry any more whether I'm missing or forgetting something as I drift off to sleep. I will miss all the fun I had planning this with some very amazingly awesome people. I will miss dancing the night away with friends. In some ways, I'll miss the rushing around, pulling things together at the last minute (like those pitiful target cookies that started as a great idea but ended up not having enough time allotted for them). However, I'm not desperate enough to find something else to plan quite yet. I'm ready to enjoy just being a guest for a while. :) 

22 April 2012


Those days everything seems to go wrong? They can feel like the worst. When you run 45 minutes late to a graduation because you mixed up the time, end up locked out of aforementioned graduation, discover the gown you designed looks awful on you so you are left without a costume, can't find a way to translate much needed Paypal money into cash in a timely manner, awkward situations arise that you have to address, and a million other little things go wrong, the sea of hopelessness starts to bury you beneath her waves. But turn your focus towards the Son, and the gifts he has given you - rest, safe travels, extra meal tickets, going home, smiles and laughter, good food, packages in the mail, "I love you", a happy boy, great movies - the darkness of the depths fades in comparison.

This is not to say I'm not stressed out, worrying, crying, and sometimes losing sleep. I need to get this money switched over, and I don't know if it's going to happen before the ball. I wanted to make a fantastic dress, but it doesn't look like it isn't going to happen. It's hard sometimes to trust, to let go, to rely on someone else. So hard. But then maybe that is the point - things will become easier with practice, once we learn to let go. At least that is what I'm hoping...

04 April 2012

...And She's Back

February completely changed my schedule. One of my older brothers left to spend a semester of study in Spain, which left a gap in our family business that my sister and I have been helping fill. By necessity I rearranged my schedule to account for the several hours a day I would spend away from home, and since blogging isn't exactly at the top of my priorities list, this blog has once more gathered dust. So, I'd thought I'd drop by and ramble on for a bit as I brush away the cobwebs.

The gifts still pile up, and are met with thanks though unfortunately most haven't been recorded. God is good all the time, whether we can see it or not.

February may have rearrange things, but it was nothing compared to March. Three people admitted to the hospital through the Emergency Department on three separate days over six days was one crazy week. It was one heck of a week which I hope never to see the likes of again. The gifts did flow freely if one just looked for them. We were immensely blessed with the gift of groceries from our church family for two weeks afterwards, which was such a soothing balm during that time. April has been calm thus far and hopefully will stay that way, though we will head back to the hospital in a couple weeks for little man's next surgery. The summer should be a marvelous vacation though, compared to this past Winter/Spring. Things seem to be falling into place for BWSC. Since I missed out on the Greenville conference, I'm forward to BWSC that much more. I'm sad though that so many great people aren't able to go this year. It's also my last year attending as a student. Just another thing to make me feel old - aging out of the college age bracket. I'm thinking about getting my CNA training over the summer while things are quiet, if everything works out. Then in the fall, it'll be back to the hospital again with little man for his foot surgery. After that? Only God knows.

One thing lead to another, and I'm leading the homeschool ball again this year. There have been a bit more frustrations this year, but so far things have been working out. It really is like planning a wedding reception every year (which is probably why the leadership usually changes every year!). I'm excited about our Robin Hood theme, though in some ways I wish we could've done a Titanic theme this year I know it would've been a lot harder than Robin Hood. The hardest part is probably trying to make it both formal and like Robin Hood, while on a small budget. Scratch that, the hardest part is getting people to register in a timely manner. We're only a week or so away from the early bird cut off and only have a handful of registrations. Why are homeschoolers such notorious procrastinators? Just a few more weeks before the event, and I'm starting to get nervous. All the planning doesn't bother me, I really enjoy it, but the crunch time can get stressful sometimes. It's the couple of weeks before hand when you wonder if you'll even get enough people to register, or if you'll forget something extremely important, or if something will go wrong at the last minute, or if someone you are counting on to do something either doesn't do it or doesn't do it well. So many things can go wrong, and the less time you have before the event the harder is it to fix. Hopefully all major crisis' will be avoided, and enough people will register so we have a decent crowd. And most of all, hopefully I won't worry myself sick.

I've been trying to start reading again. I've done a simply awful job reading this past year. I have about six books I started in 2011 that I am really wanting to finish, along with a couple books I recently started. It doesn't help that I'm a slow reader!

I have an adorable niece that is growing up so fast. I can't wait for her to start talking, crawling and walking, but I'm also enjoying every single minute of the stage she's in right now. She's definitely a cutie pie.

Well, my time is out, but I guess this is enough rambling for now. Kudos to you if you've actually read all this without skimming. ;) Actually, kudos to you if you are actually reading this, I doubt anyone actually reads this anymore. Until next time...toodles!